Need Help! Need to log this because sometimes I struggle with beating up myself to why I'm not that happy-go-lucky person I once was. I forget that it has been a rough road these past few years. I've lost myself in the process of all these losses. My sister passed November; my mom, 2 years ago; my 2 month granddaughter, 4 years ago; and grandmother, 6 yrs ago; along with an ex-fiance taking his life and the loss of a longtime friend and confidant that moved away 6 years ago and recently in a relationship and girlfriend does not want him to contact me anymore and he doesn't want to lose the relationship. A Program shutdown 3 years this August, along with thousands of layoffs, I too lost my job. While working on a degree since the layoff my house was vandalized and along with trying to deal with all these losses I has become a mess. Isolation has taken hold of me and an extra 100+lbs these last 2 years, you see food has been the only escape I've trusted to carry me through this. No more! I've join this sight because I need to voice and acknowledge I need help, new friends and encouragement from others that have battles, knowing the struggles, sadness and emotions along with the desire to learn how to give themselves a break and to take a positive approach to their health. I hope to walk the road to a healthier outcome and log the success..along with developing new friends on this sight!