Diario de Aitch11, 04 jul. 23

Yesterday was the most stressful day at work I've had in years for reasons I won't go into here. I ran on adrenaline and water. I had no chance for any type of break other than a 2 min walk-and-vape. I ate nothing as I had no time, but also no appetite. Then on the drive home, the thoughts of stopping at the supermarket to get myself "a treat" started. The idea of a "reward" for my hard day. I "deserve" something that tastes nice, because that feels good.
I recognised this for what it was, as I'd spent the morning (before SHTF) talking about this concept: the part of self that is very convincing and persuasive, and often very loud, that wins the argument when it comes to addictive/harmful behaviours. The devil on the shoulder is what one of my clients called it. I call it the intenal war.
And I'd spoken with my clients about coming up with rebuttals in preparation for their next battle in that war. An example is "I deserve a healthy and fulfilling life".
So in my car, on the way home, I argued with that part of self. I thought about my progress so far, and my progress still to go. I thought that I deserve to feel confident in my own body. I deserve to wear clothes that express my personal style. I can treat myself to delicious soup, and an early night.
And I won this battle. I went straight home, ate my soup, watched tv and consciously didn't snack, then I went to bed.
I've woken up feeling proud and powerful. The scales show a drop, but most of that will be that i did not eat properly, and I'll likely see a bounce up tomorrow. But i don't care. Because I WON💪💚
81,3 kg Disminuído hasta ahora: 6,4 kg.    Aún para ir: 23,6 kg.    Dieta seguida: Bien.

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yes, these internal dialogues are unrelenting. Just had one myself about the chocs given as gifts I've got stashed away🙄. No I don't 'deserve ' them for my hard work, I deserve the way my clothes hang & fit better cause I'm not constantly treating myself! 
03 jul. 23 por el miembro: MaryTeresa25
YES! That's the spirit, well done! 👏 💚 
03 jul. 23 por el miembro: Aitch11
@aitch11 you are so strong and have proven you are a force to reckon with. I am so proud of your decision and dedication to you goal. Pat on the back and a huge.  
04 jul. 23 por el miembro: DinghyDave
DighnyDave: massive thank you. You've put a smile on my face. 🤗💚 
04 jul. 23 por el miembro: Aitch11

     
 

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