My New Year's resolution is to learn how to be happy again and just do me.

I am a giver. I put others before myself, often neglect myself, and have my kindness and caring nature taken advantage of. Sometimes to help others best, you have to help yourself first, and that is what I am working on.

The past year has given me several setbacks, many of which I didn't respond well to, so here I am. I don't have many reliable friends or a good support system if you take away the people I know online. I am recovering from being hit by a car which messed up my knee, ankle, and nerve functions in part of one arm/hand. I have auto-immune disorder, and doctors can't clearly identify many details or exactly what disease it is. I had pre-cancerous cells removed from some of my reproductive organs. And I am trying to fight off depression and really figure out who I am again. It's gotta get better sooner or later.

I'm not here to cater to others or censor myself in what I say or write, I'm here for me. I leave my journal and other things on here public because anyone is welcome to join me, and you just might be going though the same things.



"If it's bringing you down or holding you back, you're better off without it."

(photo taken April 2013)