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I just need a normal day of eating, weather it be at least once a week, or once in a while. It gets hard to cook the stuff I need to have all the time. To go to the grocery store and buy all the special things that I am needing. To be able to find enough non meat or fish items. It is harder than I realized that alone. Taking care of James makes it that much harder. I think about an outside job and I do not know if I can handle it. It is not just the physical part of it but the spiritual as well. I see how it is so easy to throw in the towel, and then start from square one all over again. It is hard for other people to see your own needs, when you try so hard to stretch out to me their owns. I guess it is true, survival of the fittest, and for some no mercy for the rest, the meek, weather that be not the strong, or the ones that try to be gentle, but find it so hard. For now, and for me I am trying to quiet the inside of me. I am trying to find the peace that I need, so I can do this. I am trying to slow down the mind that is running every which way, and 100 miles an hour. I say start with a 30 minute walk when you can, then take it from there. I saw Oprah yesterday. Life lessons, probably half of it, because, well her first hour which was a full segment. She said, if you can't start from anywhere else start with your breath, breath in, peacefully of course, and examine that you are here and just exist. i figure I can do that much at least. Look at all the abuse we go through life, and our loved ones, what they go through! It just gets to be too much for the soul!
So, anyway, concentrate on that first! Second I do want to start writing again this winter, it is just this winter I do not want to forget about the me, an easy thing to do!
For some reason I got spy ware, I love to go on youtube! I get pop up real bad there. Then yesterday, I got some spyware, and now from my personal laptop I cannot access my yahoo account. How nice? Is it the programers that do this? Is it companies selling our info for profit? Who knows? Enough strict laws? In America? Heck no, because if we did they could not get away with doing these things!!!
Take care everyone! May you find the strength inside of you to keep going. You have it, don't let the mind trick you otherwise!!!
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833 kcal
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Grasa: 56,36g | Prot: 40,18g | Carbh: 51,11g.
Desayuno: great value heavy whipped cream, coffee brewed. Almuerzo: green pepper, Cabot vermont extra sharp white cheese, great value extra virgin olive oil, eggs (Sometimes hard boiled, or sunnyside up, or omelet). Cena: great value monazella spanish olives, red tomato, feta cheese, onion, tomato, egg. Pasa Bocas / Otros: Jolly Rancher sugar free hard candies, diet rite soda, Planters natural creamy peanut butter, Keiffer pears, great value Naturally sweetened Lemonade low cxalorie drink mix. más...
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