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I am feeling a bit sad. I was watching Bolt, it is a Disney movie on DVD. I could not help that he was white, and furry. And all of a sudden I felt boo-boo's spirit! He was a cat but he was so soft, and white, I just loved him so much! That made me feel pretty sad! Nick was trying to find me a white Turkish angora kitty/kitten, boy or girl, but we cannot find a local breeder, plus they are getting pretty scarce to find! I guess I really don't have closure! I lost Spotsie also not too long ago! I cried over a week with her! So, if it meant to be I will have one again! I wanted one for Christmas. Nick had asked me what I would call it, and I said Spoupsouka, or Spoupsouko, depending if it is girl, or boy! Nick said, boy you really don't have closure do you? I don't know what I have but my heart still feels these things, and then much pain still comes with it!
I would rather have Nick go to the doctor for a check up, and maybe be lucky enough to get some prescription allergy medicine. When I asked him for that, he replied, what king of a Christmas present is that? I guess someday he might find out, right now it is hard for him to understand that! So he keeps looking for a kitty online. I said just forget it Nick, maybe we will find, stumble on a local breeder when the time comes! Sometimes I think animals replace kids or just an empty hole from your heart. What do you guys think? I have not been in the mood to come to write. i seldom come on and leave a comment, it is hard to look into my own comments! I do not know what is wrong with me! On top of that when we go to Greece, I have to go down by Kalamata, and see my father! Believe me this is not going to be easy! A very uncomfortable thing! I have not seen him since I was 9-10 years old! He had asked for my phone number, finally i had given it out, but of course it costs to much for them to call us! I talked to his sister, my Aunt, and it took me a whole week to pick up that phone. I cried for the first 3 days or better, but I made up my mind that it was something that I needed to do!! Her husband answered the telephone, and he asked if I am Dimitrious' daughter, and I said yes. You see my dad's 2 other brothers had girls, and we all had the same first name, and second last name. Well, our maiden names, since girls/women change their name through marriage. But, even that is changing!
Ammmm sometimes harsh words effect me inside, which kind of effects everything outside!! Even emotional things play a big impact! I kind of just check out in life!! I don't want to do that, but it just comes to push comes to shove, I guess! So many things in the mind, and how to deal with it, priorities! What should we put first how do we think things through? How we function!! And H-e-l-l-o! Yes! It does effect everything, our weight included!! Many people don't stop and think about that!!
I need to bake my bread up, the Atkins one because with winter coming I know I will crave my bread even more so! The comfort foods kick in! Does anyone else feel like that also?
I hope and want to write with winter, we will see! George says we will walk at the schoolhouse! I don't because my daughter substitutes there. And I have Jamsie boy to take care of, with Nick! I think he panics when I am not here!
Today, we went to home Depot to replace our Dryer, it went on the blink, actually it went kapout! So, we got a new one to replace our old one! We don't have all of our winter wood yet, so that's why I am saying long hard winter coming!
John Travolta does Bolt! Have you guys seen it? I am getting tired of it! Worst is Speed Racer the movie! James loves those tow, and then also Avatar! My kids just use to watch cartoons from the T.V set, here we use to have cable, in Chicago, just public television! We have come a long way since then, hum?
Well, if Jamsie falls asleep I would rather have a 30 minute walk outside. Now it gets darker a little sooner, so if you don't go early enough, you just don't go for that outside walk!! I know in reality there are a lot of people who love me, but in the inside I just feel not loved! It is important not only to sort out our feeling, but how we react to them, and how we feel, and catch ourselves when we think the wrong way! It is just so much easier said than done! I use to have a WW leader say, well call it stinking thinking, well then, we are all guilty of that crime, I guess!
I just want to leave on a positive note! I watched Oprah yesterday, on OWN, and only because it was an open channel, she said, when you know better, you do better! Not always!!! Yes! I get what she is saying, and many times that's true, but it is habits, it is how our mind functions, how we function with it! How much negativity we have been subjected to, how much control we have been subjected to! She also said not to give your power away, when she was young she did with several men! yes, that's true! But she was real young when she was abused so she when young could not have a control over things that were beyond her strengths, at that time! I think she calls her show life lessons! It is pretty remarkable, pretty common sense, and stuff that I have also pretty much have figured it out by now! Still, it was very powerful! She said about her baby boy, which she lost! The only problem I had a hard time, was when she called the baby it! She lost the baby at 7 months or so, beyond being it! She said she never bonded with it! But, the thing is it was growing inside of her, and it was just as much an innocent by stander, as she was! So, other than that it was pretty darn powerful!!
I hope I can get my butt moving, if I cannot there is no use for me to go out and buy an ab circle, I sure it is great, but in order for that to happen one must use it! As for me I do not know if I will do so, I just like to sit outside by nature, and have even found a spot to write, it is between my house, and where Ann Margaret's house use to be! No, not the actress, a wonderful lady that use to look out for me living mostly by myself out here in the countryside! I have a long table that George welded the legs on it at the schoolhouse, it is so peaceful there, I just cannot tell you how much!!
So, I am going to shake a leg for now, and see if I can get anything done! I hope your guys are still putting a good effort, one once at a time, and one pound at a time! If that even is at a point where it is getting hectic, then try just to maintain the number your at for now! And I'll try to do the same!
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1544 kcal
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Grasa: 93,72g | Prot: 85,55g | Carbh: 92,65g.
Desayuno: great value monzella spanish olives, feta cheese, L'oven fresh 100% whole wheat bread, great value heavy whipped cream, coffee brewed. Almuerzo: Italian Bread, green tomatoes, red tomato, tomato, great value extra virgin olive oil, eggs (Sometimes hard boiled, or sunnyside up, or omelet), morning star prime veggie burger, kraft Deluxe american cheese slices, Hellmann's real mayo. Cena: scalloped potatoes, morning star prime burger, Deli Deluxe American Cheese, morning star veggie bacon, Cabot Vremont white cheddar cheese. Pasa Bocas / Otros: diet rite soda, Peter Pan creamy peanut butter (sometimes as a night, or midnight snack), Dannon All Natural Plain yogurt, Diet rite tangerine soda. más...
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