Diario de yogamama3, 26 jun. 09

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Still 164. Probably wont hit that 160 in 2 days but ya never know. I really dont care. Once again I think it is a control issue. I am going to be in a crowd, it will be uncomfortable so I go straight to the ok I can do it, but I wanna be 160. I dont do it consciously. I also dont make myself sick to lose the weight. I am doing what I want and ok with it. I thought this morning, it would not be the end of the world to be 164lbs. I wanted to 170 at first. I just don't want to look "too skinny". Man do I hate that word skinny. Thin is fine, skinny no thanks, lol.

I do still worry everyday that I am going to be over 250 again. I worry I will fall into bad habits again and it'll be all over. Yesterday I bought Ghiradelli brownie mix to make. You know I actually felt bad about buying it. I thought I should not eat this I will be fat again. But thats not it. I need to make my head believe that I can buy it and make it for my family. I can have one small piece and no more. Everything in moderation (except Mcdonalds-gag! lol).

I am very aware of what I eat and how many calories and what I weigh. So I think if I started to creep right back up I would stop it and get it off. I just wish I didnt feel so scared about this. Hopefully in time that will go away.

I will try and make it to my fatsecret goal of 150. If I had to pick a day to be that weight by it would be Nov 1st 2009. That is the one year anniversary of my weight loss. If I am not there by then I really dont think I will be sweating it. I changed my life. I eat great, I am aware of things, I put the past behind me, dealt with my food issues and I exercise and love to do it, more weightloss would just be a bonus.

Ver Calendario de Dieta, 26 junio 2009:

1052 kcal

Grasa: 45,55g | Prot: 49,26g | Carbh: 118,02g. Desayuno: mini cinnamon bagel, strawberry cream cheese. Almuerzo: mozzarella, pizza dough, chicken tenderloin, ghiradelle brownie. más...

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Great journal entry. Super job at being aware of your inner dialogue and working to balance it back to reality. I think it is normal that you worry about being over 250 again. I also think that with time those worries will become less intense and less often. I could be wrong but I think worries like you describe will be with us the rest of our life. When you have spent a considerable amount of time overweight I think it is normal to be conscious of it. I find myself with similar thoughts. I ate almost 1800 calories yesterday and was very worried about stepping on the scale this morning. Even though I know the calculator says I can eat 2400 a day at 175 and maintain I DO NOT believe it at all. Then when the scale said 180.2 I had to get on twice because I did not believe it!! LOL!! Still I feel so good and I know you do too!!! Having a brownie is different than eating the entire package!! I think you will notice if you begin to slip into old habits and you will catch it quickly and take it right back off. 150 by November 1st 2009 is a very reasonable goal. If you are meant to be there you most certainly will arrive!!! I don't know how tall you are but I imagine you could easily carry off 150 and still look very fit and healthy, trim not skinny!!! I think dealing with our food issues is an ongoing thing. I don't think it goes away completely I think it just becomes less central in our day-to-day existence. I can see that happening even now for me. I am much more relaxed most of the time. I feel positive. I still enjoy my food but don't feel so controlled by it and my cravings. Oh, your journey is so inspiring, I am so proud of you!! You have done it for YOU ... because you want to honor the body God gave you ... because you want to be healthy for your family ... because you decided to believe you were worth it and that all the negative things unhealthy family members told you in the past was UNTRUE!!! Keep talking yogamama ... stay true to yourself and what you believe. I'm right here with you!! Together and individually we can do it!!!

26 jun. 09 por el miembro: madaboutmoose

Did somebody say, "Ghiradelli brownie"??????? Oh...sorry! I was momentarily distracted! LOL (YUM!!!!!) :-)

26 jun. 09 por el miembro: twilightmom


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