Diario de Kallau, 25 abr. 11

Kallau - I am really so sorry to hear this. While this is never easy for anyone, you have to find your strength to come through this. And I believe you will. It's ok that you weren't on the same page and that you stood strong in that. You should never compromise. Be proud that you didn't. My first inclination would be to drink and hide, too, and I don't think there's anything wrong with that. Go ahead, do it up. BUT - give yourself a time limit on what I called my "woe is me syndrome". At some point, I knew I had to join the rest of this world and become productive again. After my "syndrome", I just made a decision to get out. I went out all the time. I needed to be around others. I was still pathetic, and my friends were probably tired of listening to me, but I needed them to help me get through it. I made it a point to get exercise. I still had to work. I still needed food. But you certainly don't have to rush it. You need time to process, and them you can move on. I found out that I survived, with minimal damage and stronger about who I was and what I wanted. This probably isn't the epiphany that you wanted that will carry above the clouds to your happy place, but I want you to know you are not the only one who goes through this. Feel free message any time.  

Well that sucks! I know how you feel and that is why I have AF! Break ups have always been the thing that upset me the most. My body reacts by my food going straight through me. Then I am crushed and just want to hide. I can't sleep my whole world turns upside down. I had a bad break up 7 years ago. I lived with a guy for 7 yrs and he changed his mind about getting married and forgot to tell me for about 5 yrs while we where living together and I was paying for almost everything. Then 6 mths after we broke up he married someone else. I was a walking zombie. I just now actually got over the buried anger from that relationship. After that I lived with someone I wasn't in love with. He just moved in on me. I was stuck for a while and also numb with depression for most of that relationship. I really didn't know if I would ever have feelings again for anything. When I laughed it was like my happiness just would not kick in. That is when positive thinking arrived in my life. I read so much and worked on myself and understanding this world and then one day I realized I had gotten my feelings back! It was nothing short of a miracle. Then I started visulizing what I wanted out of a relationship. I made a list. For the next year and a half I had to kissed some crazy frogs but then fianally my prince arrived. I don't know if this will help but you might get some more postive thinking books since you are into that right now. They gave me hope and helped me change my outlook. There is someone out there more perfect for you and everything you want. Kallau take care I will say a prayer for you.