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I am having a hard time loosing weight, and experiencing still the yo-yo effect. In my case my carbs are making a difference it is not just the calories that make that difference. Also, and very unfortunately for me I have to eat enough because my body won't let go if I don't. When I walk with George I know I am just not pacing fast enough, my mind, my thoughts, and my spirit is slowing me down. I am experiencing much conflict with it. My daughter is thinking about going back t work, ans so she is training one of my twin sons. I find that I cannot say something or comment on something without getting mouthed on, and that hurts me deeply. I have made many sacrifices for my kids, maybe they cannot seem to understand that, things have not been perfect for us, but I tried to do the best that I possibly could. When you are drowning you really don't know who to save. My husband says look out for yourself, but I will always be looking out for my kids, but still, and even more so I do not like being mouthed in any shape or form in anyway. I did not mouth my mother. I know you will say, Kathy, kids have changed. Yes, they have I will tell you. I know everything is tasking an effect on me and on my spirit. This is the only way I can deal with things my way, a way many times that I have know from eight years old, a pulling in way, a protection way, but then again who am I protecting. Am I hurting myself even more. Anyway, back to the books. I know what Dr Atkins is saying, but again when I get too strict thing kind of go through me. I love my bread, as well as my sweets. Sometimes I just want to say the heck with it. Things that remind me of my crash diets, my mind is saying enough already, and if someone is going to challenge me that I cannot do it, well I will tell them I have starved myself a large part of my life, and yes I can do it, and when I was young it worked for me, but now at this time of my life my body is kicking like a mule. I know I have to make peace with myself! But, how does a person even start to do that?
Yesterday was cherry pie making day with my daughter, it went well, like I mentioned to somebody. That went well! My daughter put together the flour, salt, butter, and canola oil, for the homemade crust! I showed her how to put it together and roll it out. She had came over and bough two can of cherry pie filling from Aldi. Last time is was done that way, we did poke the crust, but I forgot to sprinkle the flour pastry with sugar. Oh well, still it was great! It did not seem to bother me, but at the end of the day I had to taste some of it, though I did not eat an entire piece by means. It still bothered me because I just had to taste it, all these challenges make it even harder, but I must be realistic with myself, and even when I felt lousy did not go crazy with the little bit that was left, so I need to acknowledge that with myself. Tis hard though, as the young kids say!
I am going to keep working at it because I heard someone say on youtube, you need to be committed with whatever it is that you are doing, of course it needs to agree with your stomach also, because constant stomach aches means something is very wrong. Not cool as I say sometimes. I will tell you about the treadmill hopefully next time!
For now one baby step at a time. We need and we must keep going!
Well, thank you journal, and everyone for listening!
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1990 kcal
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Grasa: 103,83g | Prot: 70,97g | Carbh: 196,98g.
Desayuno: Happy Farms whipped chive cream cheese spread, Horrizon half and half, great value extra virgin olive oil, green pepper, egg beaters. Almuerzo: Italian bread (Homemade Greek Bread-using unbleached flour)(portioned), happy Farms whipped chive cream cheese spread, All American Flame Grilled Meatless Burgers. Cena: sweet peas, applesauce, great value extra virgin olive oil, Green Cabbage, Happy Farms cheese stix, garlic Italian bread. Pasa Bocas / Otros: grapefruit, Butterfinger candy bar, Twix Chocolate Caramel Cookie Bars( Aldi's version-new candycalled Jive-2bar package), celery, cherry pie, Happy Farms whipped chive cream cheese spread, Italian garlic bread. más...
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2561 kcal
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Ejercicio:
Caminar (Lento) - 3/kph - 55 minutos, Descansando - 15 horas y 5 minutos, Durmiendo - 8 horas. más...
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